Hey there, hi there, ho there! My name is Chrissy and I live in the wonderous land of T-County. I am 18 years old and I just graduated from NP and Buckeye! This fall I'm going to boogey on down to Muskingum College where I'll be majoring either in Early Childhood ED or German ED. I absolutely love Ryan Ray Cole, Tappan, reading, writing, Singing, dancing, acting, learning, my friends, my family, nature, and being a complete hilljack! haha But I definitely hate vicious stray dogs, coyotes, sharks, human spontaneous combustion, ticks, leaches, and fleas! ;)
Name:*Christine Angelica* Country:United States State:Ohio Birthday:2/5/1988 Gender:Female
Interests:*Tappan*Flea Markets*Playing in the Rain* *Bubbles*Being in my Barefeet*Friends*
*Snow*Singing*Dancing*Acting*Writing*
*Reading*History*Love*ECE*Ducks*
*Big Trucks*Four Wheeling*My Jeep*
....stuff Occupation:Student Industry:Education/Research
Between the tradegy (by the way my heart goes out to all those affected) and a hint of depression, I've been feeling awfully motivated lately to live my life how I always imagined it. I want to travel, make a difference in the world, do wild and crazy things that I've always wanted to do, and to try new things. My little brother thinks he's cool because he's saved up $100 and he's like "I bet that's more than you got." and I was like yeah, but at least I go out every weekend. At least I do something with that money, because if I'm dead what good is that money in the bank. Honestly the line between life and death is so often too short and you never know what day is going to be your last. And I want to go to bed every night thinking "Wow what a day!" and praying to God I get another one just like that on this earth . Instead of what I've been thinking at night. "this day has been such a waste". It's pretty bad that a tradegy has to really motivate me. But it has. In really weird ways too. Those few pounds that mysteriously showed up on my legs that I want to loose and those nice abs that I so desperatley want back-well it's gonna happen. That hair change I've been contemplating? This weekend. Fun at work and at school? Heck yeah. Helping people whenever I can. Telling everyone how I feel. Changes big and small will be made in my life to make it more meaninful. I don't want to be in the afterlife wishing I could change things.
It's not often that I have the time, energy, patience, or mood to write in here anymore. But maybe it's a key element in my life that I excommunicated and now am begging for it to come back to me. I read a book once called Armageddoen Summer, what the book was about is completely insignificant to the point that I am trying to consider so bring it up is not going to happen. Anyways the main character, a teenage girl, is described as "intense". The book said that she felt things more intenesly than most people. When she was said, she would cry harder than most, and when she was happy she would laugh harder than most. I feel like those words describe me as well. I've been handling all this shit better than I ever would have imagined but tonight I cracked. The egg shell has been shattered. If I keep myself busy and socially interactive then the only time I have to think about what shape my life is in is when I lay down to sleep. And everynight that I am in Ryan's arms seems to dissolve all those thoughts. But tonight. When no one is around except the dog. And everything seems to be going wrong I realize how screwed I am. And I just don't really understand how I got here. I have no car, no job, and I am not registered to take any spring classes in college. I "stay" at places but I have no home. I feel like I don't have a family and no friends. And this isn't a complaining hour...its just I am so upset. I don't want to live here but I have no where to go. And I was so wrapped up in believing that everything was going to be okay and that I was okay, that I've neglected a lot of things that I need to take care of. And the funny thing is is that I don't want to correct my wrongs. I just want to run.
UH OOH!!! I, Christine Angelica Shafer, got into my very first accident a few saturdays okay. YEah and it was my fault. Anywho-this is my last week. FINALS. Gay..umm..then I'm moven on back to T-County.
I'm selling Mary Kay now...so if anybody wants some...gimme a ring! okay bye
I really hate writing on Xanga because of that stupid thing I mentioned in my previous note. hmmmph. This is me angry.
So while trying my best to ignore it. So I am officially transferring. I am going to Kent Tusc. Branch for my associates in ECET for the next two years. Theeennn I am transferring somewhere for my Bachelors. But even though things are still a little rough at home..I am real excited. I have high hopes for my future finally.
Did I mention lately that I am in love? And more in love then just that..wow I really like this person. I feel like I am on fire. And no one can put the fire out. I feel like I've got that love that smacks you in the face with a sack of bricks. I feel like all I've been looking for is right there in his eyes. I can't believe how wonderful I feel. Sometimes I think I'm absolutely crazy, but thats okay. I don't really care what anyone thinks, especially because of Ryans age. He's the best person in the world for me. Hes my everything. I couldn't have gotten through anything in the past couple months without him. I know that we are meant to be . He gives me stability. And I have no fear. I'm not scared. Because when he holds me in his arms and looks into my eyes...I know that I am safe. I love spending everyday with him. And I'm going to for the rest of my life. Ryan Ray Cole, Happy five months hunnie! I love you!
